Waiting...

I am both the most patient person and the least patient person. I love Christmas, but hate waiting for it. I love surprises but hate not knowing. I love doing things my own way, but understand things don't always have to be my way (and bite my tongue, can let others do it their way). I hate rejection. I am both a leader and a follower. But overall I hate waiting on things that will effect my life in a huge way, but have no control over. I like lists and timelines and black and white. Although grey areas have their merit, they drive me crazy!

I am waiting on a new job opportunity, but have no idea on their timeline, nor when asked do they have one. So I obsessively check my phone for 'the' call and obsessively checking the mail for my rejection letter...

I am waiting to be a wife someday...waiting on someone else to be ready or want me to be their wife...

I am waiting to be a mother...to know what it's like to bring a new life into this world and nurture and grow with them...once again waiting on someone else to want that or be ready...

Always not really knowing...but hoping and waiting, impatiently...